Today is Wednesday November 2nd, one day past the due date of our 4th child… a boy. This afternoon we will go to our last doctor appointment and pick a day that we will induce, most likely that will happen on Friday. I still find it somewhat hard to believe that we are about to have 4 kids and with Friday coming quick I have a lot of work to do before I take 2 weeks off to spend time with the new addition and help wherever I can, yet here I am typing on a computer instead of getting some of that work done.
The reality is I’m ready… I’m ready to meet my boy, I’m ready to start this whole thing over again, I’m ready to go through all those emotions at delivery, I’m ready to figure out what our new normal is. As I write this I’m reminded of the post I wrote a few weeks before Paige blessed our family.
Although I’ve been down this road before and I know what to expect this time is different. I’m not quite sure why… maybe it’s because this is the last time I will get to experience this, maybe it’s because I’m older and already have 3 great kids and I’m being selfish about how the new addition will affect our flow, maybe it’s because this one is a boy… maybe it’s because I’m so blown away that God would bless us with another child, maybe I feel so overwhelmed that God would trust us enough to raise him.
I don’t know the answer… I don’t know why it feels different and to be honest it really doesn’t matter.
What I do know is I’m absolutely fired up to meet my son. I can’t wait for that moment when my wife holds him for the first time and I get to witness the miracle of childbirth again, there is something that happens in that moment. It’s both emotional and spiritual… There isn’t anything I’ve experienced that is more powerful in my life than that moment.
So in a matter of days I will be a father of 4, only this time a boy will enter the Rainey family. Although I don’t know how different it will be with a boy, I do know I can’t wait to spoil him and argue with his 3 sisters and his mom about holding him.
Now it’s time to get to work…
-Rainey
